I had stumbled across Harry's blog one day and began to read it quite regularly, his blog led me to several others and I found myself checking up on them regularly. After a few weeks of reading various blogs, I contemplated starting one of my own. My biggest "blogger fear" was the fact that I'm a terrible speller and grammar is not biggest strength either. I feared being ridiculed or having to deal with malicious, mean comments for spelling something wrong, or writing something that didn't make sense. I've never been good at conveying my thoughts to paper. I'm also a very sensitive person and take things said to me or about me to heart...So, needless to say I was hesitant to even attempt a blog...
The other day, my worst "blogger fear" was realized. Sblogger wrote a comment on someone else's page, in which he refered to me as being "dumb" because of my improper use of the word "I" instead on "me" on my blog about a fishing trip I had taken.
At first it bothered me and my gut reaction was to delete my blog and fade back into being the silent blog reader. Then I let myself get upset about it and I thought about firing back at him with a few choice words. But, I took a minute to sit back and think to myself, why would someone who has never met me (although he did say he met me at a restaurant sometime ago..I do not recall that occasion), and does not know anything about me (except for what he has read on my blog over the last week or so)insult me.
Had I previously insulted him in any way? Had a commented on something that he wrote in a derogatory way? Not that I can recall, and if I did, I'm sure my comment must have been misunderstood, and I apologize because that's just not who or how I am.
I finally came to the conclusion that there must be some underlying reason why he would label me as being "dumb" for one minor grammatical error...that there was probably more to the story..could be for the mere fact that I am the "G man's" sister?? But then again, he called someone else dumb in that post too, so that couldn't be it ?!? Could it?... Perhaps..
I will probably never know his reasoning behind it, if any, or behind many of the comments he makes on various blogs...
I over came my "blogger fear" and started this blog as a way to relax, to read and enjoy other peoples experiences in Saipan and share some of my own. I also thought it would be a good way for my oldest daughter who is in the Coast Guard to keep tabs on what I was up to. Not to impress anyone, not to send insulting comments to other bloggers, and certainly not to let myself get stressed out over someone I don't know and who doesn't know me, calling me "dumb".
Truth be told Sblogger, I barely made it through high school, I dropped out of college in my second semester to become a mom, I've raised three awesome straight "A" honor roll Children, for the most part on my own, never relied on any type of government assistance to pay my bills or feed my family, worked my way up from the bottom to the very top of my field, I have struggled and survived through life experiences that most people couldn't even imagine, and if that means that my brother taking Ulu and "I" fishing, makes me "dumb"...May me be dumb for the rest of me years!
This baby is bloggin' on!
Shortly after posting my blog this morning, I did recieve an email from Sblogger apologizing for hurting my feelings :) ..His apology has been accepted and I will leave it at that...What's for lunch I'm getting hungry? Any suggestions for today Boni??? :)